Amanda Hwang's Blog

These are scary times. How is it that there's shooting after shooting in America? In the supposed safest places of our country, shootings are occurring. 

잘생긴 남자들을 조심해. (농담 반 진담 반이야.) 뉴욕, 샌프란시스코, 프레즈노에서 교회 통해 그런 남자들을 많이 만났는데, 몇몇과는 사연이있다. 과거를 생각하면 가슴이 아프다. 어느 일요일 뉴욕에서, 저는 처음으로 교회에 갔다. 갔을 때 유진가 나타났다. 유진이 저에게 같이 가자고 표현 후, 케인이라는 한국 남자가 끼어들었다. 케인은 제가 있어라고 암시했다. 그리하여, 그 두 사람은 상반되게 행동하여 저를 어려운 상황에 처하게 만들었다. 저는 두 가지 모두와 함께 떠나지 않았다. 다음 주에 교회에 갔을 때, 그들 중 아무도 나타나지 않아서 실망했다. 그 주에 내가 학교에 갔을 때, 최에스더라는 여자아이가 내 일에 간섭했다. 2주 동안 병원에 입원해서 유진과 케인을 만났던 교회에 돌아가지 못했다. 나중에 알고 보니 케인은 영국으로 떠났다. 1년 전에 앤드류와 좋지 않은 관계 시도 경험이 있었다. 결론적으로, 저는 마음이 조금 아팠다. 학교 방학 때 돌아와서 앤드류 씨와 린다 씨 결혼식에 갔다. 린다가 나쁜 식으로 행동했음에도 나는 초대장을 받았다. 그 다음 해에 저는 컬럼비아 대학교로 돌아갔다. 하지만 나는 몸이 너무 나빠서 결국 집으로 돌아왔다.

Before Linda Lee (Woo) broke up with her ex boyfriend from college Eddie, who she brought to Fresno Bible study, I swear Leo Kim had tried to initiate a move on her. Linda avoided interaction with Leo and I think it was for fear of being liked by Leo Kim. It was the most hilarious interaction in a church group that I've witnessed. Linda and her sister Jessica were so rude to him, often ignoring him in social groups. There's this guy named Chris De Leon in the VOG church. He randomly showed up back in 2011 before I left for NYC. Some time ago, he randomly sent a Instagram message personalized to me. It was the weirdest thing ever. This was before I was going to Leo's House Church. It was so weird and random. On another note, there are people in life who make you really hate them. They have such bad personalities. I've mulled over whether it's worth revealing all the dirty things that went on in VOG behind the scenes, and I think it's worth it. People acted dirty,...

 I look up Leonardo DiCaprio, Matt Damon, and Ben Affleck obsessively. I don't think I could be a Women's Health or Men's Health NP. I think I can do it, meaning I can go through a school program and finish the education. However, I don't think I have the gall or boldness to work in those specialties. The other day, I performed a gynecological self-examination, and although it's not quite as important as men performing self testicular examination, it was useful. I just don't see myself performing these exams on other people. It's usually not necessary for women to perform self examination, unless it's the breasts, like it is for men, and it's more like taboo for women. If I take the Human Sexuality textbook as a guide like I do with my nursing books, doing a pelvic self-examination isn't so bad and let's say I do become a Women's Health NP, if I conduct pelvic self-examination of patients shouldn't I be knowledgable about mine as well...