Amanda Hwang's Blog

잘생긴 남자들을 조심해. (농담 반 진담 반이야.) 뉴욕, 샌프란시스코, 프레즈노에서 교회 통해 그런 남자들을 많이 만났는데, 몇몇과는 사연이있다. 과거를 생각하면 가슴이 아프다. 어느 일요일 뉴욕에서, 저는 처음으로 교회에 갔다. 갔을 때 유진가 나타났다. 유진이 저에게 같이 가자고 표현 후, 케인이라는 한국 남자가 끼어들었다. 케인은 제가 있어라고 암시했다. 그리하여, 그 두 사람은 상반되게 행동하여 저를 어려운 상황에 처하게 만들었다. 저는 두 가지 모두와 함께 떠나지 않았다. 다음 주에 교회에 갔을 때, 그들 중 아무도 나타나지 않아서 실망했다. 그 주에 내가 학교에 갔을 때, 최에스더라는 여자아이가 내 일에 간섭했다. 2주 동안 병원에 입원해서 유진과 케인을 만났던 교회에 돌아가지 못했다. 나중에 알고 보니 케인은 영국으로 떠났다. 1년 전에 앤드류와 좋지 않은 관계 시도 경험이 있었다. 결론적으로, 저는 마음이 조금 아팠다. 학교 방학 때 돌아와서 앤드류 씨와 린다 씨 결혼식에 갔다. 린다가 나쁜 식으로 행동했음에도 나는 초대장을 받았다. 그 다음 해에 저는 컬럼비아 대학교로 돌아갔다. 하지만 나는 몸이 너무 나빠서 결국 집으로 돌아왔다.

Before Linda Lee (Woo) broke up with her ex boyfriend from college Eddie, who she brought to Fresno Bible study, I swear Leo Kim had tried to initiate a move on her. Linda avoided interaction with Leo and I think it was for fear of being liked by Leo Kim. It was the most hilarious interaction in a church group that I've witnessed. Linda and her sister Jessica were so rude to him, often ignoring him in social groups. There's this guy named Chris De Leon in the VOG church. He randomly showed up back in 2011 before I left for NYC. Some time ago, he randomly sent a Instagram message personalized to me. It was the weirdest thing ever. This was before I was going to Leo's House Church. It was so weird and random. On another note, there are people in life who make you really hate them. They have such bad personalities. I've mulled over whether it's worth revealing all the dirty things that went on in VOG behind the scenes, and I think it's worth it. People acted dirty,...

 I look up Leonardo DiCaprio, Matt Damon, and Ben Affleck obsessively. I don't think I could be a Women's Health or Men's Health NP. I think I can do it, meaning I can go through a school program and finish the education. However, I don't think I have the gall or boldness to work in those specialties. The other day, I performed a gynecological self-examination, and although it's not quite as important as men performing self testicular examination, it was useful. I just don't see myself performing these exams on other people. It's usually not necessary for women to perform self examination, unless it's the breasts, like it is for men, and it's more like taboo for women. If I take the Human Sexuality textbook as a guide like I do with my nursing books, doing a pelvic self-examination isn't so bad and let's say I do become a Women's Health NP, if I conduct pelvic self-examination of patients shouldn't I be knowledgable about mine as well...

I thought about how I'm going to complete a master's degree in nursing since I'll need to pay bills and help my parents. Working full-time and going to school part-time sounds the most reasonable. USC has a FNP program, both full-time and part-time. I hope I can receive acceptance into a program like their part-time program for the FNP.  There was a civilian shooting in Midtown East of Manhattan today. It saddens me to find out there are individuals out there angry enough to kill people and then to kill oneself. It's also scary. This isn't the only shooting in NYC. There was one targeted shooting previously by the Luigi Manigione guy. In his case, he didn't shoot himself and rather, ended up on trial for murdering the chief executive officer of a healthcare or insurance company. Being near a gun or having a gun directed at you is the scariest thing. I've had both happen in my past. Your life is literally on the line.  I was in a bad part of town in Rio de Ja...

 I get jealous of the weirdest things. I own my own Beat headphones, but when I went up to SF city, I saw some people wearing Apple headphones. I found myself wanting those, even though they cost more. Even my Beats were unaffordable. I clearly can't afford Apple headphones. My Beats serve the same purpose. Still, I want Apple headphones. Their aesthetics and design is hip. I don't know, I guess I've outgrown my Beats. I probably won't ever own my own Apple headphones. They're double the price of Beats.  Since returning from the trip up to SF Bay Area, I've wondered which city is better and why: SF or NYC?  I went to the nearby Starbucks from home to try reading more of J.I. Packer's Knowing God. I read one chapter, which is better than none. I've mentioned that reading is becoming more arduous for me. My brain cells aren't working like they used to.  I enrolled in an additional class for the upcoming semester. It's Counseling for Mental Health, ...

This is what the search engine says about social tact:  Social tact refers to  the ability to handle delicate social situations with grace and sensitivity, saying or doing the right thing without causing offense or hurting feelings .  It involves being aware of social cues, understanding how others might react, and choosing words and actions that are appropriate and respectful.  Essentially, it's about navigating social interactions with empathy and consideration for others' feelings.  In my years of meeting new Koreans, I find that Koreans from Seoul have greater social tact than Koreans from say... Busan. It's an observation that's I've noted about Korean society. It could be a generalization though. I could also be biased, since my origins root from Seoul, South Korea and my grandparents on both sides of the family come from Seoul. Seoul city is the best city in South Korea.  The reason I say this about Seoul Koreans versus other South Koreans, such as t...