Could I reside in London, UK?

When I saw an old face, I was reminded to think back to my past life carefully and as accurately as possible. Despite being provided with an opportunity at financial security, I left for NYC. Andrew had made himself available numerous times, even possibly protesting at my inability to connect with him. With the possibility of guaranteed financial security, I left for NYC. I even made NYC a factor before Andrew's many attempts when I received an admission letter from NYU Nursing back in December 2010. I couldn't rescue him from the dissatisfaction he had with his "dating" pool in Fresno and at Valley of Grace ministry in Fresno, and I didn't really take responsibility for that. Five months into school, Eugene K. took similar action that Andrew had in the prior year at the one time he saw me face to face in person. 

I made living without God a consideration despite meeting or encountering Andrew and Eugene at two different churches. I considered trying to figure out how to contact an old "friend" who I knew from a freshman year class that I dropped out of and who had been at Columbia Law for the past years. I forewent the church, albeit momentarily. Ironically, I dropped out of Columbia Nursing like I had with that freshman year class due to varied reasons. My intent when leaving Fresno wasn't necessarily to forget God, but it was to live in a busier city and to have a city life, and to leave the slower paced life in Fresno.

By the way, while in Fresno, David Sihyo Kim had fibbed to me, making sure to tell me he was considering going to medical school. 

I wish I had a way to reside in London, UK. In all seriousness, what I witnessed during the bachelor days of these guys was guys trying to find "dating" prospects in their given circumstances, which was not my responsibility. Meanwhile,  I had been troubled with my chin implant in those days and consequently hated life no matter where I was situated, but I question would I have been happiest if I had a job and resided in London, UK???

Living and working in the city doesn't necessarily make happiness, but if not, why do people work so hard to maintain their livelihoods there? I clearly wanted to leave Fresno sooner, and despite returning to Fresno, I had a stubborn mentality when it came to staying in New York City. What aspects of city life did I want when I left? Well, despite living there, I had the huge chin implant problem and pains it was giving me, so I couldn't enjoy life there anyways. 

Life sucks with a chin problem. 




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