It's Resurrection Sunday

Easter Sunday sermon @ Redeemer Downtown. Since I don't have a local church to go to or affiliate with, Youtube is the way I'm celebrating Easter Sunday. 

Worship on Easter Sunday @ Clovis Hills. I find the worship at Clovis Hills refreshing, so I'm posting their's as well. 

On Easter Sunday, Jesus came back from death and rose up to be with God, His Father. I'm reminded of what His return signifies, that it means He washes away our sins and provides us with plenty of grace. Jesus Christ sacrificed Himself and died on the cross for all of us and our sinful ways. Making a sacrifice for anyone is really hard, and Jesus was able to do that for not just one person but all believers. I honestly have a hard time sacrificing my time even for friends, but Jesus showed how sacrificial He is for all of us. 

Why is Jesus' act of sacrifice so wondrous? Well, I imagine myself sacrificing for other people, which is rare, since I don't do it often. It's just simply hard to do for whatever reason. That's what makes Jesus and his act unbelievable. And, to add onto his sacrificial act, He was able to wash away our sins through it. Our sacrifices don't function that way, making them meaningless compared to the power of Jesus Christ. Our sacrifices, if it's not out of love, has very little altruistic intentions and rather depend on cost-benefit assessment whereas Jesus had absolutely no benefit to gain from his act of sacrificing himself on the cross and it totally costed him. That's what his crucifixion means to me. I mean, to give an idea of what sacrificing entails, I can't even give up Sunday on Easter Sunday to fellowship with people. It's not that I see fellowship on Easter Sunday as cost-benefit. I had gone out to church before, but it's now just tiring and taxing on me and my compromised health to leave the house, but that's something I need to sort out. 

My need for Jesus Christ and rescue isn't about what immoral deeds I've done in my past per se but moreso about a rescue from the pains of school. Only if school was less stressful, painful, and more enjoyable this semester I wouldn't feel the need for Christ as much as I do. 

My parents left for South Korea this morning. I have the house to myself for 3 weeks. Whenever my parents leave to South Korea without me, I get a glimpse of what it is like living in a house on my own. I love my parents but sometimes a break is needed. It's nice not being nagged at or having to obey their commands. At the same time, I appreciate all that they do when they are gone and miss their presence. 

Since I have a chin problem and can't smile and laugh like a normal human being, I'm very careful bout what makes me joyful. At the time when David Sihyo Kim lied to me, that didn't give me joy at all. It wasn't even humorous. 

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