Preterm Birth

 My brother was apparently born 3 months early, which makes his birth at around 27 weeks gestation if full term is defined as 39 weeks. He was exposed to my dad's cigarette fumes. Fortunately, I was born at full term. When I was in my 20s to 30s, I kept a healthy weight below 130. Now, whether it's caused by the chin problems or not, I weigh well over 200 lbs. I'm currently learning about various complications in pregnancy, one of which is those caused by obesity. There are a handful of complications and risks associated with obesity that I'd never want to become pregnant at my current weight. Another reason, once I have the chin revision surgery, to lose weight is the consideration of pregnancy in the future. Although at my age of 41, I'm choosing it to not be a consideration. What's it like to not see kids in my foreseeable future? Well, it's a bit sad, adding to my chronic depression from the chin problems. The obesity doesn't really add to my chronic depression so much because it's something I'm hoping is modifiable. But not having kids adds a bit to my chronic depression. I don't know why though. It's just one of those checklists in life that should have been done and that I wasn't able to accomplish at the right age (20s). 

As one can tell, I'm not scoring so great in the Ob class, and so my breadth of knowledge regarding Ob and Ob terminology is scarce, to say the least. I hope I was able to explain at minimal understanding about how I feel about birth in this post. 

Raising children seems too complex. You have to worry about them being raised right, having the right connections, doing well in school and extracurriculars. You also have to worry about them having street smarts as well as book smarts. It's just too much of a headache for myself. I'm more concerned about my retirement at the earliest age whilst receiving maximum amount of social security benefits moreso than having kids and raising them right.