Spring Break

 I'll be spending spring break doing homework. It'll be pretty uneventful. 

Watching church on Youtube is like watching recording of celebrities that I follow. It's partially entertainment. The difference is that with church there is the aspect of fellowship, which I haven't participated in forever. The last time fellowship worked for me was between 2010-2012. I'd have to read the Bible to figure out the definition of fellowship and the duties that come along with. Currently, I don't feel that tug to any one ministry. So, I have a superficial aspect to various ministries by watching church on Youtube. It's a bit hard and the same time, I don't expect inclusion into any one community unless I work hard for it. 

Fortuante enough for me, I have a large family where inclusion is semi-natural in that it's a given but still have to work for it. Family within the church is different because you're not tied by blood. I don't know where I'm going along with this post but to say that I still haven't figured out a church ministry to belong to. 

When I left for NYC, I feel like Taylor Swift's song "Welcome to NY" was appropriate for that departure, even though that song probably wasn't out then. 

What I'm bringing up next is not PG rated. I enrolled in Human Sexuality, which is a psychology course, back in 2010 but I ended up not taking it because I had a work schedule and other important classes, like Human Physiology. Andrew W. and David Sihyo Kim both gave me the idea that they wanted me over night on a Friday but what they said to me, each at different times in the year. I couldn't even talk right because of my chin problems. If I had actually "slept" with someone, it would have been painful for me because of my chin problems. But, on that note, that's why I describe that year as weird. I don't exactly know what both Andrew and David wanted but fortunate for them, they found their right matches. I think it was a good idea for me to leave VOG that year and move to NYC. Human Sexuality is a college class about human sex, and I bring it up, because it's an important activity in a committed relationship. At the start of the class, the professor had us buy a latex condom, which felt strange going to a pharmacy to buy one as a 24/25 year old female. I ended up withdrawing from the class. 

The other thing I want to mention is that back when I was 23 or so in the year 2008, I had liposuction done on my upper arms, flanks, and stomach area. Due to permanent removal of fat in those areas, I feel fatigued throughout the day. This is while accounting for fat redistribution with weight gain. I am a bit concerned about how I'm going to perform nursing duties as a RN due to the chronic fatigue.  



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