"These Ho's ain't loyal", virginity, Jewish hospital Mount Sinai in NYC, and Catholic nuns

After I took O-chem & Biochemistry class with Eugenia Khoo, she called me to ask if I was available to work part-time at her work place. She needed someone to help her out with her hours as she applied to pharmacy school, which she eventually left to attend at Temple in Philadelphia. Well, I came across a variety of cases at work. One of them was the IUD, which is a form of contraception. At the time, I was around age 25 turning 26. I had to measure the IUD and describe it in my dictation. I also came across cases of stillbirth and concepts of miscarriage. Those cases were truly sad. I'd see a fetus in its early form as gel-like product with facial features, and fingers and toes. 

Mind you, the nature of the work itself can be suffice to have me lose my virginity prematurely. It was sad and somewhat emotional coming across those cases. I didn't lose my virginity though, despite David Sihyo Kim lying to me and coming across a total of 4 Korean lawyers fresh out of law school and law students in a span of one-two years throughout and thereafter working at the hospital pathology lab. Quite tempting to lose my virginity to one of them but I resisted. 

I lived on the girls floor in the dormitory both at Berkeley and at Yonsei in Seoul. It trained me to cherish my virginity. I believe the Catholic religion values virginity like that of Mary the Mother of Jesus. At the same time, I tried to be educated in the topic of sex before leaving for NYC by enrolling in psychology class titled Human Sexuality and then dropping it after it was instructed to buy a latex condom at the pharmacy. Even though I dropped the class, I faced a handful of near-miss situations that could have ended up in my loss of my virginity earlier than anticipated. The daily work of measuring and describing the IUD should have had a number of effects, one of which was to lose my virginity quite earlier than I actually had but it hadn't. I kept my saintly virtues for the time being. 

Meanwhile, Linda Lee was quick to send a Facebook request and sit next to me, even providing me with a birthday gift. She was someone who I imagine lost her virginity with either her boyfriends HT Kim and Eddie Kim/Yoo or the latter Andrew Woo. Not only was her virginity a matter of question, her intentions for being disloyal to her past boyfriends was also in question. Was she really a greedy and money driven person who needed more than her former boyfriends could provide for her? Chris Brown has a song with the lyrics "These ho's ain't loyal." Hearing the lyrics to that song reminds me of Linda Lee and her record of boyfriends: Loyal - Chris Brown.

When I tried meeting with Linda Lee's youngest sister, Jessica Lee, I found her to be impossible to converse with. She also sent a FB request earlier but I just had a difficult time getting her to talk and establish a friendship that validated her FB request as justified. When she did talk, it was to ask for a job at what I was doing. It was a job that I wasn't willing to share and had in fact planned to quit early when I heard from NYU Nursing in December of 2010. 

I found out that a work colleague that had trained me died of leukemia quite a while ago. 

The moral of this story is that no matter how prepared I was for planned sex after marriage and staying educated on this topic, things worked out differently. I faced a young male (who happened to be an African young male patient) at Mount Sinai hospital who exposed his genitalia following the altercation with Esther Choi (married to a Jaymin Berg). That's not exactly how I envisioned seeing a guy's genitalia directed at me. To give some context, the patient was a psychiatric patient. Fortunate enough for me, that's not how I lost my virginity. 

In a Christian song, I came across the word magnify, which means to appear larger as it pertains to science. In the song, though, the word magnify is used as an action verb to the noun Lord. I got to thinking God is a big figure and often we minimize Him and maximize our peers in our surrounding for their worldly accomplishments, often worshiping them rather than God. It's sad that we do that God who's always by our side and loyal no matter what our circumstance is. 

Along this note, I can see how nuns become... Catholic nuns. When I visited Seoul with my parents last year, I saw an abundance of Catholic Churches and even a Catholic nun coming into a Starbucks where I had been sitting at nearby our stay. In Korean media, such as TV dramas like Hospital Playlist, there are references and mentioning of the Catholic religion. I honestly think that they're too strict. 

I have a presentation for Pediatric clinical tomorrow. I don't know if I'm ready. 

I got around to thinking about Linda Lee...well, because she did somewhat harass me during her pursuits and persistence for a local attorney, Andrew. What I got around to thinking is that her transition from her boyfriends HT Kim, Eddie Kim/Yoo, and then to Andrew Woo, and the psychology behind her frustrations and aggravations while in a relationship with Eddie Kim/Yoo who she'd been in a relationship for a long while. It was much like Esther Choi when she was dating Jaymin Berg and the aggravation she displayed publicly. 

Could their attainment for perfect grades and a perfect occupation and expectations for their significant others to meet those criteria feed into a depression and hyperexcitement? Is it possible for either Linda Lee and Esther Choi to be dissatisfied and depressed for having boyfriends that don't meet their expectations? 

I believe these are perfect examples of what God doesn't want of us. He doesn't want us to value these worldly accomplishments and success. I'm sure there is a parable for this sort of behavior. 

The attorney license and the 3 million valued house in San Diego attests for what Linda Lee and Esther Choi value and what provides them satisfaction. Otherwise they wouldn't have displayed how aggravated and frustrated they were at their present circumstances. What does that say about all of us who aren't valued in the way an attorney license or a 3 million house in San Diego is valued at??? 

Zillow gives a Zestimate® of $3,287,500 for the address at 5320 Wildstar Trl, San Diego, CA 92130, which is where Esther Choi and Jaymin Berg apparently live in San Diego. The reason why I permit myself to look them up and publicize their valued house is for what Esther Choi had done to me publicly in NYC. 

The Christian song "Jireh" is appropriate. "I will be content in every circumstance...Jireh, You are enough."

My mom insisted I forego NYU Nursing in January 2011 for Fresno State, which I did. Whether it's due to my chin implant or not, I discovered I was truly unhappy in Fresno in a matter of five months from January to May 2011. In April 2011, I quit my job at the pathology department after finding out I received admission to Columbia Nursing. I moved in June 2011 and enrolled in over 20 units for that summer, which I ended up with 3.6 gpa. In September, I started out with psychiatric clinical rotation at NYP hospital. In either late September of early October, I decided to try Emmanuel Presbyterian Church on Columbia Uni campus where I encountered fellow Koreans. 

About a week or two later, I saw Esther Choi behaving truly manically and wildly on campus and persisted at her aggravations and frustrations, similarly to Linda Lee at home due to Andrew Woo (I saw due to because Andrew Woo was the cause of Linda's aggravations and frustrations). A professor took Esther Choi's side and made me cry. I found myself at Mount Sinai where a young man exposed his genitalia and directed it towards my direction, which shocked me. I reported it to the psychiatric floor doctors where the patient was from. 

When I took a LOA from the university, I continued taking antidepressant medication for being in Fresno.