Recital and concert photos from the past


I came home after working in the Kindergarten classroom as a substitute teacher. It was truly delightful and rewarding. Kids at that age are precious and a joy to be around. I'm going to be working a lot of hours this week since school is done and I have a free schedule. Plus, I need the money. I'll be in Pomona next week for the surgery operation. I've got lots of bills to pay, and plan to visit San Diego and San Francisco this summer. Lots of good eats to try. 

Reverting back to the topic of teaching, I really enjoy it. It's a more laid back job than nursing. If I could switch out of the nursing profession and go into teaching, I would in a heartbeat. I'm already to sunk in the profession of nursing to get out of it. The pay in nursing is also better. In many ways, though, there are similarities between teaching and nursing. In both professions, if you're working in pediatric nursing, you're looking out for the well-being of the child and accounting for their developmental needs on the job. I really love that I'm able to teach as a job while finishing up nursing school. Work feels like play because it's that enjoyable. I enjoy the interaction I get with the kids and feel good at the end of the day that I'm making a difference in the livelihoods of children. 

More than that, I feel productive and good that I'm keeping a busy daily life. I had missed that aspect of being in a big city, but I realize I can have that sort of busy life living with my parents in Fresno. It amounts to what I make out of this ordinary life in Fresno. 

When a guy shows an interest in me, I am free to be picky with when and who I reciprocate feelings to. That means, I'm not a whore or slut. 
Is there a reason why it appears that I lack friends? I wasted my latter 20's on getting to know different Korean guys, whether it was in Fresno or NYC and at the church, and not investing in or establishing girl friends. However, I got a feel for what Korean guys are like, especially Korean lawyers, and what type of Korean guy I incline towards. I definitely know what guys I'm not meant for. 
You know when you've acquainted yourself with someone, it's very hard getting used to other types. It's hard to explain but I find that I'm used to my past friendships and it's hard adapting to newer friendships. I thought about past Korean guys who I saw as potential soulmates and for whatever reason, things just didn't work out. It's really tough emotionally when that happens. It gets tougher to find that one soulmate as I age. I guess that's just part of getting older. That explains why I lack genuine girl friends.  
I'll flat out expose that Korean guys who work or worked for corporate law firms, even those ranking on top, have actually taken advantage of me in one form or another, and it's somewhat upsetting. It's not to the extent where I'm traumatized but it has taken an emotional toll on me, the fact that my time can be wasted on them or my time was wasted by them or the way they directed their emotions at me. That's just not right. I don't know if I make any sense.

I spoke about my dad's cousin and her daugher and that they located my apartment in NYC. This is the daughter's profile on her employer's website: https://www.jipyong.com/en/member/member_view.php?seq=706. She's an Emory Uni. law school graduate. 


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