Chin implant for face/chin augmentation

 Back when my mom saw a magazine ad for the Korean plastic surgeon in Los Angeles Koreatown, she decided to take me there. It was the worst idea to have plastic surgery done at such young of an age. It was the year 2008, just two years after my undergraduate graduation. I had returned from trying to live and work in Los Angeles. Not only did the doctor perform liposuction on various parts of my body but he also performed a chin augmentation. Now most of you will think "What's the problem with improving the appearance and becoming more beautiful?" It's a major problem and has been problematic. 

One of the problems with the chin implant was the discomfort of talking, smiling, and laughing, which are normal necessities for human interaction. Due to the prolonged effect of the cosmetic chin implant, even when I had it removed in 2016, I've had issues relating to my inability to communicate and feel those emotions that smiling and laughing produces. I've had hormonal issues. In lieu, I supplement my day with psychiatric medications, hoping it'll help me feel the endorphins that provides joy and happiness, which I've been unable to feel due to the chin implant and chin removal complications. Even when the Korean male professional, such as a working attorney or law student in NYC, provides a lending hand, I've often refused due to my inability to respond their actions. I wasn't ever expecting diamond necklaces or Rolex watches or anything lavish. 

Nonetheless, ever since my mom had me get plastic/cosmetic surgery done back in the year 2008, I've been uber sensitive about my face and body and have had numerous revision surgeries since then which haven't completely satisfied me or kept me content.





I'm having such a hard time finding a good church with nurturing, wholesome fellowship at home. I've explained that I moved on from the church that I attended before I left for NYC in 2011, which was Valley of Grace (the English Ministry of Korean Presbyterian Church in Fresno). I really should be searching for a replacement, which I think will fill my current spiritual and social needs. 
Back in college, it was easy to join a fellowship and live a Christian oriented life. After college, that's been a struggle. It's less incentivized as a young adult or adult to live like a Christian than it is in college where social peers help with the Christian walk. 
I'd rather not go into detail about the struggles that I've faced with the Christian walk as an adult because it's better left private. 



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